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So I was talked to today...
I was given a 30 day notice by my mom.
Texas is like the 2nd most populated State in the country and she is expecting me to find a job in 30 days at one of the fast food places around here. There isnt 100 other teens trying to find that same job?

I go through the drive thru and see the person working there... and think "Why was I not hired?" 
I am smart, work hard, and have a perfect attendance for everything.
I see the biggest Druggy highschool had to offer now works at Taco Bell. The only thing I can think of and I don't want to sound conceited or something but... Am I over qualified? I don't WANT TO be over qualified. I just want a small job to have while I goto school. 

When 100 kids are going for the 1 opening at the local fast food joint it makes finding a job hard. Well my mom has worked up a legal eviction notice and I have 30 days. I just want to take my tax return and just buy a bus ticket to somewhere, anywhere out there. I hate my life here.

My mom compares me to my sister ALL the time. My sister hates that my mom does that but my mom does. I was told today "You are nothing but an embarrassment to me" ... really encouraging Mom.
I told my sister today that she should be a little less perfect... she said she wasnt perfect and I know that. My mom always says:
 "Why can't you get a job like your sister did?"
"She bought her own food, she paid for everything herself and you are just a lazy bum and I don't want a bum in my house!"
"She paid for her own insurance!"
"She had two jobs when she was your age!"
"Why can't you go live with your dad? He needs to do something in your life!"
"Why do I get stuck taking care of the kids and your dad takes the easy way out!"

Yeah... It is quite depressing in this house.
She thinks she is perfect but I know damn well she isnt... 
Some can say she is doing it for the best out of me? But I am nothing but a "hot mess" ...

Well I am going to apply for the 4th time at the fast food places around me. 


Thanks for reading guys... if you are... haha :)

-AnonymousCitizen

Thinking...

I was thinking.... Do I whore myself out because I just want love?
I tell myself I don't want love though.... maybe because I am scared to get hurt? I dont know. 
My Mom and Dad are divorced and I know that scares me away from marriage.

I say I don't want to date someone because of all the drama that comes with a relationship. But I'd like nothing more than a relationship. I want to find someone who gets me though.... 
Who doesn't care that I am a geek who likes video games...
Who doesn't care that I am nocturnal...
Who doesn't care that I don't want kids...
Who doesn't care that I prefer dogs over cats...
Who doesn't care that I love to watch old movies...
...
Who doesn't care that I am Gay...

Why does life have to have Sucky days?
Why can't it always be a Good day?

I did meet an awesomely cool guy today..... that is good, makes me smile :)

Night everyone.

-AnonymousCitizen

Hola.

Well I just got done eating dinner. I am quite tired. I didn't have to goto class today, good deal. 

I am taking this stupid "EDUC" (Education) class.... The collegeREQUIRES it ._.  

Yeah, waste of 135 bucks? I think so. Well this teacher thinks she is a philosopher of life. She is the ying to lifes yang and she knows how the universe works. Well this class is literally about thinking. We are learning how to think... better? It is stupid. The class is 135 bucks and the book is 74 bucks. College is not to bueno thus far.

I hope class is cancelled tomorrow too. 

But tomorrow is government and I like my government teacher, she is hilarious. 

She is a hippi named Pheonix. 

She wore these "Hip Hop shoes" as she called them. They were bathing apes (google it) and I couldnt stop laughing because she is in her 60s. Haha. 

She loves to practice her freedom of speech too, mouth of a sailor. 

I have always liked history or government type classes. I do want to major in political science or maybe international studies? That would be cool to work for the government. I want a suit and tie job. 

I just picture myself with a suit and tie with a name badge/ scan card. It would be epic. 

My mom finally got herself a new car, I am happy for her. Go Mom!

I watched "Angels and Demons" today, good movie. Ron Howard directed it and he is one of my favorite directors. That movie had me wanting more, right when you thought you had it figured out. It completely changed. It was awesome. Loved, Loved, Loved it.

Well I will talk to you guys later, I hope someone out there is reading these post haha.

-AnonymousCitizen